College

Well, it’s the end of my Senior year, which means that I have two more months and then it’s off to college for me. Scary. Very scary. I’m totally not excited about the prospect of being on my own, not even a little. I’m just freaked out, and that’s the God honest truth.

First off, the fact that I’m going to a college that wasn’t even kind of my first choice doesn’t help things at all. I had to settle for going to Cal-State LA because I was pretty stupid at the beginning of this year and didn’t apply to any other colleges besides the Cal-States, and I only did those because there were no personal statements involved in the process. Don’t get me wrong, Cal State LA is a perfectly good college, but I know I could have done much better than that. Cal State LA was supposed to be my back up college, not my main one, so the fact that I’m going to have to go there kind of kills me.

My future college.

But then again, maybe it’s for the better that I’m going to Cal State LA, because I don’t think I’m ready to go to a better college. I’m still just as lazy as I have ever been, if not more so, and that’s a bad thing when it comes to college. If I was going to a better college there is a great chance that I would get kicked out because of bad grades. The time of my graduation is almost here, and I haven’t kept up with my grades very well. I’m still graduating, but my GPA is much lower than it has ever been. I settled for C’s for about three classes, and that’s  big no-no for me, because I usually get all A’s and B’s.

What’s more, I’ve been severely inactive concerning my college deadlines. I barely made the May 1 deadline for registration at Cal State LA, and I completely missed the deadline for the Honors College at Cal State LA. I’m not even vaguely aware of any other deadlines that i might have to complete.

So I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m not really looking forward to going to college.