So here I am, sitting down, typing away the sadness I have been dealing for the past few weeks. A new life for me is awaiting, just right around the corner and I feel nothing but sadness, annoyance, anxiousness, a tad bit excited and worried. These mixed feelings grow more and more as I see the numbers of how much I have to pay for school.
But at the same time, this is the decision I chose, and nobody said it will be easy. So why am I complaining? Well because it still sucks. It sucks that I do not receive financial aid, it sucks that my parents cannot afford to pay for anything and that education is so expensive. I just want to rant out my heart!
But I’m trying my best. Trying to win against all odds. It’s not an easy task but oh well, la vida nunca es facil. I reflect back on life and I wish I could go back to the old times.
When I would worry about being outside and trying to win at softball. Those were the times where I was the happiest. When I was oblivious to such things as the budget crisis or such. I loved those moments..I really did. And I wish life could only be like that. Nothing but sunshine, puddles, worms, boogers and grass.
I need 2 more days for school to end. I’m not quite sure how I should feel about this other than “FINALLY”! I’ve wasted 7 years of my life in the LAUSD system and to be honest..they were the worst/best times of my life. I learned a few lessons here and there, wasted a lot of time failing and wasted time improving. I have mixed feelings about graduating but all I know is that I made it! And now my new life starts in San Francisco and I’m trying to let it soak in slowly. Wish me luck.